That I would be good....

I really like this song;



At times the "Winter Blues" attempt to sneak into my attitude with their cousins, the "Blehs" but music has a way of chasing them off the premises. I appreciate that, and am very grateful for ears that hear and a soul which enjoys uplifting music. Music is a gift from God.  

Ayla's birthday is nearing and I've found myself in the "what if" land....not a bad place to be but certainly not the most productive use of mind time.

 It's been almost 2 years since Ayla and Zoey's unexpected early arrival and yet....it felt like only yesterday too. The picture below was taken right after delivering (such a lovely picture...yeah, I know.....). I am first meeting and at the same time, saying good-bye to Zoey as they transported her to the Boise Children's Hospital downtown. It was scary, a bit overwhelming and I wanted to go with them but was unable until being released.

However, I had heard little Zoey cry shortly after her quick descent into this world and truly, that sound is etched into my brain. Thank God for ears that hear as that was the last time she was physically able to make sound. I often think about that soft, initial cry and play it over in my mind- so sweet and soft and it reminds me; to be good.   

"That I Would Be Good"

(lyrics to the song above)

that I would be good even if I did nothing

that I would be good even if I got the thumbs down

that I would be good if I got and stayed sick

that I would be good even if I gained ten pounds

that I would be fine even if I went bankrupt

that I would be good if I lost my hair and my youth

that I would be great if I was no longer queen

that I would be grand if I was not all knowing

that I would be loved even when I numb myself

that I would be good even when I am overwhelmed

that I would be loved even when I was fuming

that I would be good even if I was clingy

that I would be good even if I lost sanity

that I would be good

whether with or without you